Today, I made a boo-boo. I told a client that I couldn't finish the job and they almost reprimanded me for doing so. I should've told them ahead of time and that I shouldn't have made promises that I could accomplish the job in a certain period of time. Although I really did want to make the deadline longer but I wasn't certain they would do so. I feel like such a failure at this point. I should've told them earlier and gave them all back because I couldn't do it. I was even told that I could raise my price if it was difficult or something. I wasn't really after the difficulty or whatever it is, I was after the quality of the work to be done. It was really such a terrible thing that I did. I mean I couldn't really get my mind off of it. Well, I learned something - if I have a bad feeling about it, do not accept it. Yes, I learned my lesson. Actually, right at the start, it was really something like a disaster already. I could foretell it was because I wanted to back out already because I didn't have the proper equipment, they didn't want to let go. Number two, I wanted to see if I could do it, the girl was giving me just two tapes and she decided to give me all the tapes. Then, the next day, I called her and told her I don't think I could do it because it was really such a mess I mean the people in the tape were all talking at the same time that it was going to be hard for me to understand and it would take a longer time for me to transcribe it. But she told me to go on with it. I really wanted to back out then. But the girl was insistent.
But now, it seems it was all my fault that I failed. I still went on with the project. I feel so bad about it. It's my credibility that was at stake. And it's gone. But I guess I just have to face it bravely, without fear because we all are humans and we make mistakes. We should learn from them.
And to add to the injury, when I went to the BUREAU OF INTERNAL REVENUE, I had cases that I didn't know existed. My gosh! I still had to pay taxes. I'm just a small fish compared to the famous actors and actresses who really run away from paying their taxes. I just can't imagine my life situation like this.
I'm not a criminal so why do I have to suffer this way? Is it karma? Because I've been so haughty against some people in the neighborhood? Well, whatever it is, it would all be over. Soon.